Death can never and will never be sweet. It always has a dark connotation. It's always sad... depressing, even if you think of it as finally getting reunited with the Almighty Father.
Faith tells us that there's life after death and not just life per se, but life that is eternal and blissful. But... who knows? Who knows what really comes after death? Maybe death is just a black hole that would suck us, and spaghettify us, and rip us off atom by atom until we're microscopic, until we're gone... just gone. Maybe death is a black hole where neither time nor space exists-- a world of oblivion.
Angelo Reyes, one of the rumored major players in the recently disclosed military corruption, ended his life with a bang-- not the usual vivacious kind of bang (that we hear on Christmas and New Year's Day) but the fatal kind of bang that could end one's life in just a jiffy. He shot himself on the chest. On the chest? Does it symbolize heartache--unbearable, excruciating heartache?
Big things always come to us. Sometimes, these big things are not the ones we want to welcome in our lives. Unluckily for Mr. Angelo, the most unexpected and definitely the most unwanted big thing came. I sort of pictured him being really complacent, thinking that all was well... that he had escaped the shackles of whatever corruption he had done. (I don't accuse him of anything. "Innocent until proven guilty." Did I quote that right?)
The controversy he's into is big, really BIG. It might have caused him to lose his ground, or shake his head really hard, or whack his senses (or whip his hair back and forth). Certainly, it was a blow. A blow that knocked him out so bad. A blow that made him run so far until he reached an end where there's this little room, so dark and falling apart.
We all have our 'dark room' moments. Sometimes, we feel like it's all black-- the world has betrayed us, everyone has turned their backs on us. Our vision gets really hazy. We're all alone, our thoughts clouded. We see no means of escape until we find the tiniest hole we could ever see. We see the hole as the only escape, and that hole is suicide... death. But... Is it really an escape?
Angelo Reyes shot himself in front of his mom's tomb. Probably a sweet and moving gesture if we think of it as a son offering his achievements to his mom but in Angelo's case, I guess we could never think of it that way especially 'cause there's blood involved. Still, it's a gesture of a son who loved his mom deeply most likely thinking: "My mom gave me my life. And this right here, in front of her, is where I'll end it." (Well, that might sound terrible esp. when you do it in front of your mom who's still alive.)
The snafu we're already experiencing became more confusing and enigmatic with Angelo Reyes' death. Did he do it just for himself or did he do it to cover the tracks of someone more powerful? Did he do it because the shame and scrutiny was already unbearable? Or was he really guilty (beyond reasonable doubt)? Did he really kill himself or was he killed?
As expected, Angelo Reyes' death left us with more questions. May his soul REST IN PEACE(Though, if he's really going to be at peace is highly doubtful).
